Philosophical Me!

Stop!It doesn’t matter.

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What matters!

There comes a time when you stop caring. You stop thinking. And you’re past that fickle understanding of messed up stuff that happens all around you. You stop trying to figure out everything that’s wrong with your life and everyone else’s around yours. You stop being the bully and you stop being pushed around. You come a complete circle. And when you do? You feel so liberated that you just might fly. You realise that in the end,nothing really matters, afterall. All that ever mattered was your sanity. Sanity,which you had almost lost in trying to make everything right around you. Sanity,which you just might lose anyway if you don’t stop and search inside of you. Introspection is not hyped up. This shit is actually a necessity. And,this can put a stop to your mulling about all the universe’s problem and focus on your own self. Because you come to realise that being selfish is not that bad in the long run,maybe. You do need to be selfish, you know. For that sanity. For that conscience. For yourself. Because that’s what matters. That’s all that really mattered. That’s all that will ever matter.

Toodles!
~A♥~

Lists

“A”:Glimpses into 6 aspects of my life.

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I am that:contradictions.

I am not the friend who discusses boy problems and latest crushes. I am that friend who you talk “deeper stuff” with;the one you come to when you need to be motivated;the one you text when you need to apologise to a friend and don’t have appropriate words.
✴I am not that sister who hugs and kisses you. I am that sister who gives you high fives when she sees you after weeks;who you discuss fast and furious 7 with,even though she hasn’t watched even a single movie from the franchise; who you show pictures of wheelies some guy from your hometown posted on FB.
✴I am not that cousin who you make small talk with about how college is treating her. I am that cousin who you watch mid-night horror movies with;who laughs at the most horrifying scenes of CONJURING when you claimed to be afraid of it for days after you first watched it and you laugh because, apparently, she wasn’t afraid because you were with her;who you, sometimes, reassure that everything’s gonna be okay,even though she’s the older one.
✴I am not that daughter who you need to be worried about lying to party. I am that daughter who would have her nose stuck in a book all day long,if no one interrupts her;who can not stay away from home for more than a couple of weeks when everybody else her age is having a ball, partying in a city away from home;who still cries every single freaking time you see her off every couple of weeks to return to college even though it’s been more than a year and she should be used to it by now;who still (sometimes) tries to hide her tears on phone when you sweetly tell her to have a goodnight’s sleep,even though she talks to you 4 times a day.
✴I am not that girl who ever has boy/bff troubles. I am that girl who doesn’t believe in love;who people are always trying to figure out;who they believe they know so well, when they haven’t even uncovered the top layer;who people claim to not get;who they say is so weird sometimes; who they claim to be bestfriends with,but she never reciprocates because, duh,she doesn’t think so;who loves her family so much she would die for them, and only them,in a heartbeat.
✴I am not a person who trusts. I am that person who people have called stuff you would laugh your asses off about if you knew her even the tiniest bit;who is, apparently, two-faced (And, well,I am maybe. I am a Gemini, afterall. They are supposed to be two-faced.*shrugs*);who doesn’t give a damn what people think and is generally laughing when she gets to know the latest gossip about her;who never really abuses out loud;who is a mumma-papa’s girl;who loves relatable quotes;who loves doodling on her wrists;who loves mystery;who runs in the opposite direction when it comes to fashion;who has “eccentric” tastes in music;who is tomboyish most of the times;who generally hates everything girlie;who loves platform pumps even though they are totally girlie;who is a walking, talking, breathing ball of contradictions;who just…is.

Toodles!
~A♥~

Poetry

Happiest birthday, Mumma! ❤

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And she's another year of awesome!❤❤❤

Cradling my head
In the warmth of your lap,
And murmuring sweet nothings
When I felt sad,
And the silent understanding
That dawns in your eyes
Whenever I am low
Or something isn’t right.
And the fooling around
And laughing like hell,
Like old buddies;
Old buddies,Oh yes!
And the happiness,
The glow on your face
When I come home
Or tell you about a test I aced.
The pride in your smile
And the praise in your actions;
The delicacies you make,
Giving me the greater fractions.
The unconditional love,
The friendship I don’t deserve,
The bond we share,
Your strength I crave,
Your beautiful soul;
I am a part of your whole.
Whenever you smile
I find myself grinning.
Whenever you adore me
I feel like I won an inning.
You’re the best;
Have always been
I wanna be like you
Even though that’s still unseen.
You are you!
You are special!
You are awesome!
You are…love;the best mumma ever!

P.S. I know bestest isn’t actually a word,ya!
But even that isn’t enough to describe the kind of best that is my mumma!We have that bond that most people dream about. And I am so thankful for that. It’s her birthday now.🎂
I am away,but I hope she realises the kind of bestest she is to me.*smiles*

Toodles!
~A♥~

#SL · Poetry

Soul on fire.

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She. This piece is dedicated to Eve from Master of the game and mistress of the game by SYDNEY SHELDON.♥

She was a silent pursuer
She was a vivid observer
She was a sly talker
She was a stealthy walker
She was a sinful delight
She was a treat for sore eyes
She was a burning desire
She was a soul on fire.

P.S.Ada,this is a Sheldon lady,as I see her. Now before you start wondering who this is about, lemme tell you.
This is….Eve!Yes!See,I couldn’t decide upon a heroine. I love them all. But the only vamp I love is Eve.So I start with her. She is art in herself. So,here.:D

This is sooooo laaaaaaaame.*chuckles*
But,anyway.*sly grin*

Toodles!
~A♥~

Poetry

Portrait of happiness.

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A sweet salvation. A sweet elation. A sweet sigh. A sweet cry.

The happy sounds
The tinkling bells
The tinkering of bangles
The feeling, afresh.

The sighs of satisfaction
The sights felt with closed eyes
The silences, chased away
The roaring turned to sweet meows.

The sly grin
The happy chuckle
The sheepish smile
The teeth flashed bare.

The painting comes alive
The characters breathe air
The melody reaches the ears
The portrait; a sweet affair.

Toodles!
~A♥~

Awards!:D

Random Facts,huh?

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Well,I have been nominated for the CREATIVE BLOGGERS AWARD by http:// informaticcoolstuff.wordpress.com/ and the DRAGON LOYALTY AWARD by http:// lovemadigirl.wordpress.com/ and the VERSATILE BLOGGER AWARD by http://lifeventsobservation.wordpress.com/
Thank you so much, guys,for the nominations. :*
You people rock!:D
Now,since all these awards require me to state 7 random facts about me,this is gonna be a compiled post. I am laaaaazy,in case you didn’t already know. 😛
Soooo,
I love those songs, the lyrics of which I can relate to. And there aren’t many, trust me, since I don’t believe in the basic emotion most songs are written about. :/
I love eating sweets. Any and every single one would do. Seriously. ♥
I am kinda fat. I mean,as I have mentioned before, I have a huge butt and thunder thighs. But every single person I have been meeting lately has been telling me I have lost weight. Like a lot. So much so that it’s noticeable at the first glance. I don’t really believe that,to be honest. I mean, I don’t feel any different. And I get this a lot that I am NOT fat. I am curvy. But I feel fat.*whines* I dunno. Anyway…-.-
People tell me I would look great in a saree. For those of you who don’t know what a saree is,it’s an Indian clothing for women. It is something which can cover your body up really well,or can be the sexiest piece of clothing. It depends on the way it’s draped. TMI?*sheepish smile* But that’s how they describe what a saree is. Anyway, I have no idea why they say that. They just do.*rolls her eyes*
I live away from home. I mean,for college. But I generally run back home every other weekend. I cannot live for long without seeing my parents in flesh. A total mumma-papa’s girl,as Ada once mentioned. *grins*
I love clothes! Like,really love. I have a very extensive summer wardrobe. I don’t generally repeat clothes during a semester. On the other hand, I only love to wear a couple of PJs regularly. This irritates my mumma to no end. And the thing is,I still love shopping for clothes. Weird,I know. But that’s my middle name, remember? 😛
I love wearing tees. They are sooo comfy. *sighs*

And, since I have combined three award posts, I will give an 8th fact.
I hate cottage cheese. Like,seriously. -.-

So,no nominations again. Whoever wants to, go ahead. 😀
Note:I am taking the like button off all the award and nomination posts I am gonna post now. I was nominated for these more than a couple of months back. I don’t think my “witty” and “interesting” responses deserve a like after I procrastinated on these for so long.:/

Aaaaannnd, with this end the pending award posts. 8!Can you freaking believe that?! That’s just height of laziness,don’t you think? Anyway,I am done with the pending award posts now. So…peace!*sighs*
Toodles!
~A♥~

Awards!:D

Futuristic me?*smirks*

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Sooooo,I have been nominated for the future challenge by Abhijit and Sowmya.
Thanks a bunch, you both. :*
Check their blogs out,you all. “Fascinating” stuff,you will find.*chuckles*
I have no freaking idea what’s expected of me here,even though I have come across more than a couple of such posts in the last couple of days. So,I am just gonna try,you know. I remember a couple of categories, though. I will include those and hope for the best, yeah? *sheepish smile*
So,here goes nothing.

Job. *sighs* Well, I still haven’t figured out what I wanna do after graduation. I can go with MBA or I might try Masters in Economics. And till I don’t figure that out,I can not even begin to guess where I might wanna work. Totally different fields open up after either of the options. But what I do know is,I wanna work somewhere/with something interesting, and I wanna work at a place which pays well. I am not beating my head against the walls that is economic honors for nothing. *smirks*

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Travel. I have always loved to travel. I have been to most places in India,as I have mentioned a couple of times before. I wanna revisit a couple of these,and the remaining ones,too. And I know I will in the next few years. Have I mentioned I have the best parents in the whole damn world,hands down? They are already planning a trip to Goa, one of the revisit locations, as the first time I visited was when I was, like,4. -.-
So,this is gonna be true. No doubt. I will get to fulfill my travel goals,and then some.*grins*

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Settling down and kids? *Snorts* Sooo,I think most of you know I don’t believe in love. And I am one of those people who claim they aren’t going to marry ever. So,obviously, there’s no point in discussing this. But my mumma begs to differ. She says people who claim they aren’t going to marry, end up announcing their marriage in the most unexpected ways and times. Soooo,the gist of this^ is,I have no freaking idea about what would happen in my life under the “settling down” category. And I won’t even try to guess. Because I strongly believe in my opinion, and my mumma’s always right. So,you see the conflict?

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Behavioral issues. I have temper issues. And I am,supposedly,arrogant. And ego problems. And not a very adjusting person by nature. And bitchy at times. And control freak. And…stuff. So, people say, you will change as you grow up. Who else has heard it before? *Snorts* And I say,I kinda love me the way I am. I don’t wanna lose these “bad behavioral problems”. They make me who I am. They define me,in a way. Does that make sense? :/
Anyway, let’s see what happens. Hopefully Wanderingviolet will still be active when these “predictions” turn out to be true or false and I will tell you all about it.*winks*

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Writing and all that. This is random. Like, totally random. But maybe, just maybe, I will be an actual writer in my future. After I improve my writing skills drastically.-.-
Even though reading has always been my “LOVE”,I just might be writing something epic all the years later,and you people will be like,”We knew her before she was famous, you know. She wrote non-sensical,lame stuff on a blog all those years ago. Now see,where she has got to. She’s going places,ya!”
Just a totally random, out-of-the-blue thought. I don’t intend to be a writer, as per say. But I just couldn’t think of another category. So,that.*wiggles her tongue at the screen*

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Sooooo,my certainly uncertain future predictions. Let’s see, what future has in hold for Wanderingviolet a.k.a “A”.*winks*

Nominations:
M(Muskan)
Ada(Shubhada)
Bhanu
Rules are,there are no such rules. Just that, link the blogger who nominated you. It says,thank the blogger,too. I say,ignore this one. Totally upto you. Wanna thank me still?Go ahead. *grins* And stating 5 future predictions about the catastrophe that’s going to be your life in the next few decades,nominate a couple of bloggers, or more for the same. The categories can be anything. You can take the categories I used,or something entirely different. Totally your call.
If you have already done this, ignore, ignore, ignore!*smirks*

Note:I am taking the like button off all the award and nomination posts I am gonna post now. I was nominated for these more than a couple of months back. I don’t think my “witty” and “interesting” responses deserve a like after I procrastinated on these for so long.:/

Toodles!
~A♥~

Lists

Love?Or HATE?

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I have been nominated by the http:// theclosetplebeians.wordpress.com/ for the love/hate tag. Thank you so much, guys,for the nomination. :*
Go check theirs out. They even talk about free samples. *winks*
Here,I am supposed to mention 10 things I love and 10 things I hate.

So…love. Hmm
🍫Chocolates. Obviously. I don’t think I need to mention why the chocolate emoticon is the marker for the stuff I love.
🍫A good deo. I hate it when people smell bad.:/
🍫Pimpleless face. Again,no explanation is needed,I hope.
🍫When a favorite film of mine comes on the TV unexpectedly.
🍫Cute advertisements. The dairy milk ad with the 5 friends?Fab!*grins*
🍫Yummy food.🍕🍔🍝
🍫Ice water.:D
🍫Deep conversations!*_*
🍫Pretty clothes and high-heeled platform pumps. Call me shallow.*shrugs*
🍫Such lists.

And HATE.
🐀I hate rodents. Like hell.*sudders*
🐀AND LIZARDS!*visibly shudders again*
🐀Gross talks.
🐀And cheap swearing. Especially in hindi. I wanna shut those people up by smacking them on their mouths.-.-
🐀Asterisked expressions gone wrong. Such stuff just pisses me off. I am weird like that.:|
🐀Dirty feet. Vvv irritating. Mine or anybody else’s .
🐀Repeating clothes without washing. Hate hate hate that.-.-
🐀Unlit streets.
🐀And potholes.:/
🐀The fake I love yous flying all around. Every person uses this phrase while talking to every other person:be it friends, “lovers”, ooooor frenemies. Hate that like hell. -.-

Now,nominations!
Well,whoever wants to,go ahead. It’s awesome! you get to mention 10 things you love/hate. What’s not to like huh?:P

Note:I am taking the like button off all the award and nomination posts I am gonna post now. I was nominated for these more than a couple of months back. I don’t think my “witty” and “interesting” responses deserve a like after I procrastinated on these for so long.:/

Toodles!
~A♥~

Awards!:D

Did you say Bookaholic?!

So, M (Muskan) nominated me for the Confessions of a bookaholic tag. Thank you so much, M.:*

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Booooooooks!♥

Go check hers out. You will be AMAZED. She’s fabulous. 😀
I think she created this tag herself. Didn’t you?*grins*
So,here goes.
Who is/are your favorite author(s)?
SYDNEY SHELDON!♥ Without a doubt,ya.
Book adaptations to movies or tv series?
To be honest,I don’t generally like adaptations after I have read the book.If it’s a series,I will have to wait. And I hate waiting. If it’s a movie, they won’t really cover the important stuff which book obviously offers. So…I dunno. I am conflicted.
A hyped series that you just couldn’t get yourself to love?
The vampire diaries. It just didn’t click with me,I guess. I read it till the 3rd book. Then Elena died. And it was crap after that. So,I stopped there.:/
♥ A book or series that you regret not reading?
What I regret not reading TILL late is HP. You see,I never liked Daniel Radcliffe. And so, automatically,I never liked HP. Even without reading it. I just assumed it was crappy after I watched a scene from 4th installment where a deformed man without a nose was about ready to kill a kid.(I didn’t know till late who the deformed man was.) So,I never read it. Then,a friend of mine literally forced me to read the first book. In 11th standard. And I was hooked.(Don’t you dare laugh.*glares*)So,I regret not reading it earlier because of my dislike for DR. I still don’t like him,by the way.-.-
A character you wish was real?
Can not decide,for the life of me. Finlay, Jared, Stark, Ry…so many are there,I can not even list them. And any of the leading ladies of Sheldon’s books.♥
Why don’t all the characters come alive?*whines*
Ebooks or real books?
Ebooks. They were there when real books weren’t. So,I am thankful. *grins*
A book/series you regret reading?
50 shades of Grey trilogy. Hands down. -.-
A classic you love?
None. Bookaholics generally love atleast a couple of classics, but I never have. And maybe,I never will.:/
An all time favorite?
Can we not?
A book everyone should read?
Everything by Sheldon. Lol I am obsessed with him. *sheepish smile*

M also nominated me for Brotherhood of the world blogger award. Thanks, again,girl. :*

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Awards overload.

Sooooo,
You are given the responsibility to bring global peace, how will you do that?
How about bribing everybody with delicacies like truffles and dark Chocolates? Mm-hmm
Did blogging improve your life in any way?
Well, in a way. I started writing more often,for one. And that’s good,right? Earlier, I wrote poems. Sometimes. Now I write stories and quotes and accounts,too.:)
You can do anything you want for 3 hours, what would you do?
Raid the best bookstore of the world. And steal all the awesomest books from there,obviously. *winks*
Reading or writing, given you’ll be paid for reading?
Reading!❤
An idea of a perfect life?
Getting paid to read books of my choice. How awesome would that be?😍
You can travel back in time, what year you would choose and why?
I dunno. Whenever they decided we needed to be educated. And smack them with the thick ,fat books we are now forced to study from.
Just kidding.:P
Space, Solitude, Silence. Choose one and why?
Solitude.
Is there life elsewhere in universe?
Hopefully,yes!They shouldn’t look like aliens , though.*snorts*
You have to plan a surprise for your best friend, but you are broke. What will you plan?
Don’t believe in Bestfriends.:/
One of your friends, with whom you were not in contact for many years, meets you somewhere and starts cursing you. How will you tackle the situation?
Ignore the jerk. I am good at that. Then,tell them to shove their cursing you-know-where. And finally ,walk away like I never knew them after telling them what I actually thought of them.
Or maybe not bother at all.#_#

Note:Since months have passed since M nominated me for these,I am not gonna nominate anybody. I hate copying and pasting links,anway. So,whoever’s interested, go ahead. Just gimme the link when you are done. I would love to read yours. *grins*

Note 2:I am taking the like button off all the award and nomination posts I am gonna post now. I was nominated for these more than a couple of months back. I don’t think my “witty” and “interesting” responses deserve a like after I procrastinated on these for so long.:/

Toodles!
~A♥~

Fiction.📝

High of my life.

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CRUSHED.

He was my high. He was my life. He made me feel drunk on life. With him at my side, I felt unconquerable. I was indestructible. Nothing could touch me. Nobody could harm me. He would protect me. He would stand in harm’s way before he let anything happen to me. He adored the hell outta me. Ah,the illusions! Beautiful, deceiving illusions. I had this thought inside my head for as long as I have had my senses:When he was there, not even Satan could touch me. The moment he left, it would all fall apart. And fall apart, it did. Atleast half my theory turned out to be true. The wry smile twisted my full lips. How I had loved to kid myself all these years. Running away from the sick reality that has always been my life. It was a front. He,like every other freaking person,was using me. I was just a pawn in the sick,twisted game of chess he had been playing all along with his opponent as life. A bug under his feet. He disgusts me now!Even the thought of him makes me wanna retch. I throw up a little in my mouth whenever I think about the stupid, naïve, good for nothing wench I had always been when he was around. I was so trusting, then!Not now. Not anymore! I won’t let another little girl live her life under such illusions. I am going to dedicate my life towards outing all the bloody jerks so another innocent heart never gets crushed under the boot of a classic manipulator. I will bring this soul-crushing reality to the notice of all who are living this fake happily-ever-after they assume to be their life. I will see to it,even if it’s the last thing I do.

Toodles!
~A♥~