Emotions

I am lost

A wandering violet...drifting on the wind;lost!
A wandering violet…drifting on the wind;lost!

Yes.I am lost.The lost one in the group.Well,not literally,but I hope you get my drift when I am through with this.So yeah,as I said,I am lost.

The thing is,I have never really said those words to another living soul.Like, ever.So you see how difficult this is for me to say it on such a huge platform?How about the whole world?Okay,I don’t really have anyone who’s going to read it as I am writing it as of now,and that isn’t even the reason I am writing this post.The real reason behind this huge step is my need for introspection.I know what you are going to think when you read this.Maybe something along the lines of,why is she writing a blog if all she needs is an introspective into her own life?

Actually,not twenty four hours ago,a roomie of mine suggested I write a blog,if for no other reason than for the sake of writing.So it got me thinking that maybe that’s the platform to get it all out.To get all this…all these lost feelings out in the open.Well,you see,as I wrote before,I have never said any of these to anyone else in all the years of my existence.And what better way to get it all out then to write it down?

I am not doing this for the obvious reasons people do.I am a wanderer who is lost,sort of,and who is trying real hard to find her way.Trust me,I have no complaints about the life I have been handed(yes,handed) due to actions of my past.I am enrolled in a very good college,studying a subject that always fascinated me,having a bunch of friends and living with good enough roomies.What I am actually lacking is… FOCUS.No people,don’t go there. my mental health is perfectly fine.What I am trying to say is,I don’t exactly know what I want to do with my life.That’s where writing comes in.Yes,I love to read.And write(not).So,when my roomie so generously suggested that I write a blog,I jumped on that idea.Because,maybe writing will help.Not that I am not normal or anything(I am so not ;-)), but it makes me feel like maybe it would help me find what’s actually lost,because I feel my life is lacking something.Don’t know what,but something.I am a wandering violet.
Violet is a small flower which has numerous species and gets lost among them.(Yeah,that’s where my blog gets its name from :-)).Not many people know about it.At the expense of sounding haughty,I feel this blog’s title is so very well justified.I am like a violet flower…there are so many similar to me out there,that I naturally feel lost.And I am wandering,trying to find my own self,my individuality.

Let me warn you,I don’t have a “niche” per say.I mean it’s not like I am trying to promote something or anything.I just want to…write.So my blog is going to be about everyday-random-stuff.Anything and everything.So one day you may find a post about a totally awesome novel(Did I mention I love to read?! :-D), and the other day, a poetry with overflowing emotions.You never know…it might be interesting(or boring as hell!). But bear with me.Because it’s a journey of a lost wanderer’s hopeful self discovery.

I hope that you people help me with it,because that’s what this is all about:Helping.Because even if self-help is important,it’s not always enough.

Toodles!
~A♥~

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